Dear Mommy

Unaware was I
Of how I stepped on this cruel world.
Didn't know what the world is when I was one.
Didn't know where I came from when I was two.
When I was three,
Immensely grief-stricken was I
A buddy called a woman 'MOM'
Who is a person called 'MOM'?
Why couldn't I call one?
Who forbid me to call a woman a 'MOM'?
Can all kids call a woman a 'MOM'?
As I stepped 4, 5 and 6,
More curious thoughts I developed
I was seven when my dad send me to school
Wow! What a splendid time I had
Alas! It was short lived,
Everyone of them had a person called 'MOM'
Their mom meet them every weekend
Then I developed one thousand queries,
Why didn't I've a person called MOM?
Why did dad refuse to tell me about this?
Gradually with every pace I took,
I learnt who is a mom when I was 12,
Mom is a wonderful person,
No other person is as great as MOM,
She cares you beyond her abilities,
She loves you with all her heart,
She hugs you warmly in the winter nights.
She is a wonder
How fortunate you all are,
Unfortunate me!
What a fate had brought to me??????
One night I enquired my dad,
'Where is my mom'?
He said with a mournful look
'One chilly winter morning,
When you were one,
When the sky was dark and rumbling,
Death laid his icy hands on her'.

I stay carefree and I try a lot.
I smile and I try to be equally as others,
But deep inside me,
My heart sobs bitterly,
If you stare deep into my eyes,
Millions of scraps of sorrowful spots you can see.
One never knows how I overcome this sorrows
Thats why I've reasons for everything I do....
Without a person called 'MOM'
They may think I am happy
They may reckon I am satisfied
I am NOT
Deep inside me, my heart stills aches,
That's why I've reasons for everything I do
To fight back my sorrows,
There's reason for everything I do....

The most saddest thing happened yesterday,
My step mom's little daughter who is four,
My beloved little sister told me,
'Why do you call my mom as step mom?
What does it mean'?
Tears brimmed my eyes and gave her cold smile.

Dear mother!
Today I am 19,
A grownup man and energetic
Enough to sacrifice everything for you
Had you been here.
I reckon you can hear me,
I do not curse you for leaving me
Neither do I blame you for my sorrows.
I can walk this way till the end,
Don't worry mom!
If god grants me just one wish,
I want to see your smile
For your smile can make a bend on my road.
I would be glad throughout,
I'll see you smile in my dreams,
On the walls, on the book pages,
In the open air
And I would gaze everywhere
To quest for your miraculous smile,
Please respond me soon
I Miss You Mom!!!